la vie dans une pensée
les décisions,décisions…

new year, new semester, new me? Perhaps yet it all seems incredibly alike to yesterday. One more year passed, dreams accomplished, dreams abandoned, new ones in pursuit. Soon this fork in the path we can life will come when I must either choose left or right, guided only by instinct I hope it be the right choice. One way or another with God’s blessing I’m out of here too much of the same, adventure and life await I must embrace it and let go of everything that’s been holding me back, I will miss you question is will you miss me as much? It could go terribly wrong but fcuk it, I’m young and is that not what life is about making so many mistakes that one day we need not make anymore because the right choice is way too obvious at that point. 

l’amour?

I don’t know the feeling of brushing your lips to mine but i can only imagine it’s as divine as paradise itself,
I don’t know what true love really is but what i feel for you is the purest form i have yet to experience and probably ever will

I will never have the courage to tell you but i guess its better that way 

hopefully one day in distant future destiny brings us back together on the same path… 


TON COUER

Your Heart is is the the organ that pumps life into our body,soul and spirit. It is the one that will always led you to a world of desires and dreams unknown but in the process will steer you rigth on the path of destiny. Sometimes it seems stubborn not letting go of emotions that long have seized to make sense in our heads but it knows best, of when to cherish past feeling and emotions and not let them wither,likewise it may eb one to cut the roots off and plant a seed in order for something new perhaps something unexpected to grow. I wish those seeds could jsut be bought like regular ones and a little bit of water and sunshine was needed sadly it is not so, therefore I’m holding out for the right seed to come along that will grow exponentially and fill my heart as I’d plant my own in them.

mes rêves

What are dreams if not a manifestation of our subconscious; a projection of what we are too afraid to admit … but then again they are only dreams  alternate realities in which life’s rules don’t apply.Once conscious many questions arise. What once was a sign of a pleasant dream becomes an omen of your worst nightmare. New dreams have filled your  heart and soul, their pursuit will not be in vane  for even if they are not to become reality, in their quest you will find tranquility and content.Will they eventually be like the others or are these one more step towards the completion of your life’s journey. Time can only tell but meanwhile never forfeit seeking to fulfill those dreams cause you never know they might just come through…

“Hindsight Bias”

Hindsight bias is a documented psychological phenomenon in which people exaggerate the predictability of an event after it has already happened. Some psychologists refer to hindsight bias as the “I knew that was going to happen”

Why is it that when we  seep into a state of disappointment and disillusion  we imagine ourselves in a different place,a different reality one that tends to dwell and revolve around the past. It also happens that we look back on this journey that we call life ,that no matter how hard we try to head down that road we just came from its a one way street that simply wont let us, we start to feel insecure and and doubtful we question the very decisions and events that  together like a domino puzzle fell to produce who we are now, that make up the fabric and structure of our existence. We pretend that somehow if we changed that one decision that torments us the outcome would be different. We may pretend o be someone else but sooner or later that person who who you truly are will surface and take over. Sure now it seems easy to look back and say i would definitely have never done that or i would have but it only that easy because ewe have experienced it and we must not regret those decisions no matter how erroneous they may seem now and for a while to come its all a part of making so many left turns that we eventually stumble onto a right one and our path is clear for us to take…

“Les gens de raison le trouvent si fort pour être heureux est qu’ils toujours voient que le passé mieux que le c’était, le présent pire que c’est, et l’avenir moins a résolu que le ce sera.
(The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be)”

I have chosen this quote specifically to ispire me for my first blog not only because of who it comes from but because the reality i sense in it. It hard for most if not all not to dwell on the things that have passed us and may be long gone but somehow this certain quality has not been stripped away from me little by little. I have realized that no matter how hard you try the past cannot be changed, the present is slowly leaving us and the future is unforeseeable and though our past is responsible for who we are now it is the present that will morph who we are in the future. Live in every moment as if it were the only one , piece by piece the puzzle of your life will resolve it self and in the end every piece was fundamental but none as important as the last.
p.s. without her inspiration i would have never done this thank you eyesiss


Marcel Pagnol quotes (French Writer, Producer and Film Director, 1895-1974)